sorry guys.. in another funk, can anyone help?

I'm basically feeling on at a low right now, I've had 2 weeks off for a holiday and I just, have been doing nothing, all I've been doing is watching youtube videos, or well literally just on my fucking computer looking threw tumblr, facebook, deviantart, or youtube or just... I've always found it easier to have something to go on, like when I get given an actual brief in art, I have tonnes of ideas, but writing my own brief, I can't, and its actually upsetting me that I can't even draw properly without some sort of idea of where to start, and a time limit, ectect.

The only actual productive thing I've done in two weeks is well.. I finally decided I want to learn Japanese about 3 days ago, Its been on my mind for like, a year, but I wanna learn it properly, not just know how to say hello, my name is -such and such-, good bye, I want to be able to be able understand Japanese, speak it, write it, and you know what, I'm willing to spend how ever long it takes to learn it properly. 

So yeah, I still just, with this drawing thing, I don't have any ideas, no inspiration at all, just.. nothing..

It's depressing to think that I actually need to ask you guys for help, or to ask anyone for help, I hate asking things from people, especially when I have a feeling that people will just be like 'I can't help you' or 'We all have problems, deal with it', 

But I really need some sort of help, if anyone has any tip on how to get me outta this funk then please just.. help me alittle, it'd be really appreciated.